vivien

Pretty screwed !

2010-12-03T02:42:00.002+08:00

MY LIFE IS PRETTY SCREWED UP !

why why why ?

why are there soooo many problems in life ? I ain't a strong girl anymore ;( broke down sooo many times recently . Those pains and sufferings are unbearable ! It's killing me slowly !

take me away, will you ?!

Life in a mess I guess

2010-08-31T12:22:00.002+08:00

okay crap . My blog is soooooo dead . I had wanted to update it many times in the past . but I just don't know what to update . Will try to update more often I promised ! So many things to update . One by one !

1)I went back to sch to study alr . Have been studying for almost a month alr . With tons and tons of assignments to do . Almost driving me crazy . Somehow I regreted quitting rp . But .... Anyway . Sch have been great with my classmates . Enjoy going to sch minus the assignments part .

2)Work was crap ! Totally crap . Everything was not right . Everything was blamed . All just because of a person . Seriously can u stop using your authorities and try to backstabbed others . Somemore trusted u soooo much . I really couldn't believe that u would do this to me . FUCK ! U are just soooo fake ! Can't u just get a life ? CRAP !

this year 7th month I have not been staying at home . Shit . Anyway mum and me are getting along better alr . Things are going smoothly for us alr . Thanks to dearest ?!

finally I get to change my phone alr . Lalala . iPhone 4 :D

everything was just crap !

2010-06-21T02:38:00.004+08:00

the 3 of us have been hanging out almost everyday aft his bday . HAHA !

super super long never had a proper post alr . update update !

1. went to luo zhi xiang's concert at indoor stadium with dearest . NICE TTM ! wohoo . next i really wanna go is F.I.R ! omgomg ! but i think cant get the tickets alr :( must faster go and ask alr . lalala .

2. working almost everyday at northpoint . sales getting from bad to worst . i damn suay ! suay ttm can . for the past 3 days they change me to bishan to work . walao . no customers at all -.- suay ttm ! if i buy 4d confirm wont win want lo . tmr i go back northpoint confirm die ;(

3. i'm going back to sch alr . september go and register . november start sch . oh my tian ! i cant wait lo . i want to go back to sch . lalala :D

4. took part in the energizer street netball at scape on 12 june . didnt got into 2nd round :( i think i'm getting lousier and lousier sia . oh my tian . seriously i should really go back to club training with presto alr . feeling soooo old . -.-

5. my left knee giving me alot alot of problems recently . while working suddenly got a loud crack sound and i immediately cant walk . have to limp all the way . limp for 5 freaking days before going down to temple to let the zong yi shi tui . everything soooo different at temple alr . soooo many new faces and the person in charge there dont even know who i am and they charge me money . aft bandaged for 2 days it's getting better . but it seems like it's very fragile and at anytime it might just give way . soooo scary !

6. planned a surprised bbq for dearest . hopefully it would be a memorable one for him . i didnt know planning a bbq could be soooo tiring . but luckily i'm a damn fortunate girl . i got my dearest sissy to help me prepare the food tgt . really thankyou sissy soooo much soooo much . u know i love you . HAHHA ! <3

i think seriously everyone should learn to be more truthful so as not to disappoint others .

彻底的累了, 自我反省吧 !

2010-05-26T16:50:00.004+08:00

一点都不开心 :(
付出了那么多却换来你的一句'我累了'
直到最后,你还是终究不相信我:(
我到底应该怎么做?? 请你告诉我 !

i'm really really tired alr . both mentally and physically tired ! but i just don't know why things just don't seems to go to the right path ! every now and then , small little things turning ugly . i really need a break pls !

keeping my fingers cross , i really hope that guy could reply my email back regarding about my studies . i really wanted to go back to school soooo soooo badly ! but sometimes reality just don't fulfill it but in fact makes things difficult :(

have been thinking back alot lately and i realise that i have let down many many people . i have been stagnant for soooo long alr . it's really some time for reflection .

NETBALL ! how i wanted to go back to train . having training 3 times a week . although it was damn tiring but i enjoy those period of times . but now ? once a week i can even miss out training sometimes . or rather sometimes i only went training once a month and ended up get really disappointed with my results . why ?! cos after all i cant blame anyone but myself for not improving . but just slacking everyday !

STUDIES ! how i wanted to go back to school . but no one is there to lend me a hand . not even the closest ones to me like my mum . she don't really have the ability to help me at all ! i don't blame her because i know it clearly myself that what type of environment i am brought up in .

why do people always wants to start treasuring when they loses something ? why cant they just fucking treasure things before they lose it ? everyone does that including me !

i really must 加油 ! 加油 ! 加油 !

我们就这样继续一整天不说话吧 !

goodbye nightmares ! sayonara

2010-05-03T03:36:00.005+08:00

Just because the past is painful , doesn't mean the future will be .
So never let events from the past , change the events for the future .
Or you will be miserable forever.

new found bonia love ♥

2010-04-17T03:30:00.004+08:00

okay i know my blog is soooo dead now ! boyf bought me a bonia wallet recently and i love the wallet to the max ! thankyou love ! and booo ! i'm sick . stupid shit . hopefully i'll recover before the batam trip ! shall have a proper post the next time round . goodbye :D

爱情

2010-03-18T03:14:00.002+08:00

爱情就像舞会
教会你最初舞步的
未必能陪你走到散场. . .

爱情就像听音乐
遇到好听的
就会陶醉其中
单曲重播
一秒都不想停下来. . .
而如今只能随机播放
等待下一首能让我心动的旋律. . .

等待
记得我曾经对她说
等你是件幸福的事
可是有时侯
无结局的等待让人心碎. . .

这世界上最累的事
莫过于眼睁睁看着自己的心碎了
还得自己动手把它粘回原型

我不等了
因为我学会了
放手. . .

放手. . .
你很伤心的对我说
我不爱你了. . .

可是
你不知道
让你飞翔
是我爱你的方式. . .

我的眼泪
落在你看不到的
角落. . .

于是
我们的距离
就像一起看日落的影子
拉长了. . .

会经常试逃出你设下的
阴影
走了很久别
才发现
原来我还走不出这黑暗的迷宫

偶尔
触碰到的伤口
偶尔
也会小声哭泣. . .

我选择逃避
用尽美丽的童话来掩盖丑恶的谎言
我催眠自己
因为我受不起伤害
你已离我而去. . .

我活在过去
因为现实生活中
你已离我而去. . .

你送我的礼物
我都舍不得扔
你给我的回忆
我都藏在心里. . .
偶尔拿出来重温. . .

很无聊的
你的照片存了又删
删了又存回. . .

很自私的
每一天都要你在我脑海里跑一趟. . .
也很愚蠢的
每一天都在你看不到的
角落
关心你. . .

对你,其实我还在意. . .
我们可以重来吗
可以回到过去吗

可是我很清楚
我们的生命线再也不会遇到交叉点了. . .
两条不碰面的平衡线
只能隔着远方看你
终究
我们成了彼此的路人甲. . .

分手后不可以做朋友
因为彼此伤害过
不可以做敌人
因为彼此深爱过
所以我们成了
最熟悉的
陌生人

想念你的我. . .
希望你是幸福的. . .

thankyou jason . sooooo meaningful . and i really type out all the word one by one myself . really very very grateful no matter what happened , u will always listen to me 诉苦 all the way without even complaining anything . really very appreciate it . loveyou ♥
i promised the next post would be a better post (:
i just love the way we are now . always bickering and fighting to win each other . loveyou boy . actually abit touched la . u actually wanted to learn how to play netball . iloveyou ♥♥♥♥♥♥

2010-03-10T13:07:00.001+08:00

just as i was abt to believe what u said . i saw smth new again ! how ? tell me pls !

笨女人

2010-03-07T03:37:00.005+08:00

人往往是矛盾的.为什么呢?
明明知道不应该看的东西就不应该看,可是还是心痒痒还看了多几次.
然后就在那里想东想西.
为什么人总是那么的欠打?
有时侯真的还是自找的.

真的会发生吗?

2010-02-25T01:38:00.004+08:00

this few days was AWESOME ! i really enjoy myself for the past few days ♥♥♥ at first car's home :)
AWESOME ! iloveyou mr Lim

i shall update again . eyes super heavy now ! gnights . loves all ♥♥♥

2010-02-07T13:10:00.005+08:00

cny is coming and i have yet to get my clothes . shit . i only like left with 5 days to shop ? omfg ! at the same time i cant wait for cny cos i can get to see many many relatives (:

LDS work load getting heavier and heavier :/ ot-ing almost everyday :(:( boring job . almost everyday dragging myself to work . HATE IT !

dearest was soooo nice that day to cook porridge for me and he delivered all the way to chinatown . SWEET right ♥♥ aft that he bought alot of muffins for me . and i shared with my colleagues . and ben was asking whether dearest is interested in guys cos he wants dearest to be his bf . HAHA ! soooo funny lar . the super super big muffins ♥♥

my love♥♥

that day aft i end work at np and he send me hm . always constantly frowning even in his slp :(

the day he bought my ai xin lunch (:

this week ah kim last week working in the zoo . alittle sad . because aft that we confirm will meet even lesser cos of our busy work schedule :( she made me soooo emotional lar that day . the things she said . i know that i soooo gonna miss her .

aft which she send us home . and me and my kellington was posing with her car . HAHA ! i cant wait to get my license . omgomg !

I'M THE DRIVER ! HAHA !

lets go :D

my dearest 阿姐 ♥

♥♥

阿姐 and my kellington :D

kellington with her dream bike :D

on our way home .

阿姐 i will miss you ♥♥

in my shoe

2010-02-04T00:34:00.003+08:00

if u ever put yourself in my shoe , would u react the same way ? but i simply just don't know how to put into words to let you know how i feel . i'm afraid . i really wanna let you know my day . but just as i was about to let you know . u are like kicking me down to the cliff and giving me the bochap attitude . it's damn hurtful if you don't know . why can't you just support me with all the decisions i made ? rather than saying that hurtful sentence always . i will let you know cause you are important to me . could you just let me talk for just that few minutes .

i said that day than decide because i don't want to expect anything but turn out it only to be disappointment you understand . because the higher the expectations , the greater the disappointment . and i realised myself to be crying alot recently which i hated it most . i only want us to be how we used to be .

you could spend that extra few hours just by talking but the person is not me when i wanted to say soooo much to you . if i happened to be like this how would you feel ? tell me pls .

passion ♥

2010-01-30T20:53:00.001+08:00

have been neglecting this space for quite sometime alr . NO TIME ! everyday also working . mon to fri working at LDS . sat and sun working at gmask . i want long holidays ! i want to go overseas badly ! BOO ):

netball have not been appearing in my schedule recently . i miss everything abt netball and definately miss playing with rpnetballers . presto only have training once a week ): more pls . alamak . i lazy to blog alr . will be back soon !

RPNETBALL ♥ PRESTO in daisy tan's carnival ♥ NETBALL my love ♥♥♥

you are always the source of my heartbreaks :(

happy or not ?

2010-01-20T00:02:00.003+08:00

went out to eat with dearest at the usual prawning place . we had a huge feast . HAHA ! we are 2 crazy people . in fact . only him . he have got 6 stomach . HAHA ! he's a monster :D but i love him <3 look at the amount of food for just the both of us .
my favourite hum :D i only dared to eat the hums there . other places are a NO-NO ! i dont know why either .
HAHA ! black pepper crab :D
五香 of course got my favourite 皮蛋 <3<3 fried omelette egg with oyaster :D
dearest favourite gong gong . eat alr will be like him so GONG ! HAHA !
the conclusion !

seriously crazy sia . HAHA ! i shall stop eating soooo much alr . cos ever since i started working in LDS . all i know is to eat and eat and eat . my mouth never stop eating in the office . OMG !

today work was hell . cos when i woke up had a super bad gastric pain . thought aft i eat my breakfast will be alright cos it always happened . joe was nice to buy prata for us :) ended up it got worst . was curling up like a ball man ! all the way until lunch time it got better and met up with mark daddy for lunch at the hawker . but aft that i got worst AGAIN ! FUCKING PAIN SIA ! first time pain until soooo jialat that i ate 4 gastric pills also no use .

right now it's still hurting and i want to go and rest alr . bth bth . SUPER PAIN ! ARGGGHS !!

when was the last time ?

2010-01-06T01:10:00.001+08:00

you insisted on waiting for me to reach home safely when u are actually damn tired ?
i can feel that you are actually worried abt me ?
when we were chatting on the phone for hours ?i really cant remember .
all i heard now was : CALL YOU BACK LATER !
BOO !
i miss you and i really do :(:( iloveyou!

2009-12-27T18:50:00.003+08:00

4 more days and it would be a brand new year for everyone of us . hopefully it would be a better year :D

work was getting alright alr . alittle getting more used to it . but still , it was still hell boring to the max ! checking of commission sheet and sorting out consignment notes every single day . even christmas eve was supposed to end work at 4pm . but ended up i went hm at 530pm lo . because we were not supposed to leave when our things are not done yet . BORING SHIT ! :( but time really passed fast cos 3 more days and i've been working there for 1mth alr :) i've survived . HAHA ! gonna get my first pay on the 5th . cant wait cos i now damn ah hei :(

next week i also working 4 days only cos of new year day . HAHA ! horray . long weekends . this weekend i didnt managed to work pasamalam so it was a damn long holiday for me . for me to get enough slp and for me to chiong my drama :) 下一站, 幸福 damn damn nice . ep 10 i cry like fuck lo . HAHA ! that little boy damn damn cute and sensible :D

chirstmas eve went to dearest hse . super nervous and gan jiong to the max lo . HAHA ! soooo many relatives there and i'm like an alien lo . aft which dearest send me home . thank you dearest <3<3 happened to see daniel and da moo sao at vivo . so so coincident lo . HAHA ! super long nv see u all alr . miss miss :) and i saw jay chou and lin chi ling too . HAHA !
happened to see this photo at ah jo sis de fb . cant even remembered that i took this photo lo . i think this pic was taken 2 years ago ? i miss my LONG BLACK HAIR :(

I WANT LONG HOLIDAYS ! i'm very looking forward to the cruise trip with dearest <3<3<3
i love my dearest prince <3

2009-12-08T22:04:00.004+08:00

finally i'm back blogging . oh my . started working for 2 weeks alr . work was hell boring to the max ! always ard 3plus i started yawning and dozing off . can u imagine to the extend that i went to the toilet to slp ! really damn tired sia . everyday wake up soooo early . start work at 845 but everytime they came in ltr than 9am . except for 2 who came early . but my colleagues were lovely and fun to work with . HAHA ! this is my pathetic desk for my first week . red bull was my best friend for the first week . i had 2 cans per day until my colleagues scolded me :/
look at the amount of consignment notes . that is only like 1/4 of what i'm supposed to sort !
my mini office . HAHA ! they all wear slippers to work . i also want ! HAHA !

piles of consignment notes to sort ! BOO !!

more and more ! BOO !

always looking forward to fri . cos sat and sun off . HAHA ! but the first sat early in the morning mum woke me up damn damn early . to have breakfast with my cousin who came back to sg . and she would be flying back to hanoi to work . the nxt time would be cny then she will be back . drag myself up and went out for breakfast .

saw my cutie pie . she super super cute . HAHA ! when i abt to go to work at pasamalam she dun let me go off lo . HAHA ! damn cute . when i left mum told me she cried . HAHA ! love u baby :D

she purposely gave that face when mum said lets take photo :D

HAHA ! purposely :/

she was carrying the bag that sheryl gave to her and she was trying to show me her new toys . HAHA ! cute right ! love her to the max :D but seldom got the time to see her . cos busy working :(

my hamster xiao hei gave birth again . this time to 7 babies . HAHA ! all healthy and fine . hopefully all grow up healthily .

xiao hei moved all the babies up to the top and she carried the beddings up all by herself .

but aft awhile she moved them all down to the wheels . wei da de mummy hamster .

boy came to my hse almost everyday to look at them and buy new food for them . we ate steamboat at my hse ytd . HAHA ! cos i craving for it . but i want to eat bugis de the nxt time . HAHA ! *hint hint* :D i loveyouboy <3

2009-11-29T05:27:00.003+08:00

idk what happened seriously . damn sad . cried for so many days alr . but i really dk whats wrong with us . i really hope that it will get better seriously cos i really miss the old us :(:( hurtful words always make me go speechless . i know u cared but why things turned out this way ? when i said i dun wann to go your hse on christmas eve is not because that i'm not prepared to see your dad . it's because i'm really really scared ! cos i seriously dk what will happened . boy i really care abt u if not i wouldn't have do so many things . i dun wish to say anything else alr . sighsighsighsighsighsighsigh ! hope things will get better . iloveyou ! gnights !

2009-11-27T04:02:00.002+08:00

my blog is sooooo dead . actually not vry busy . but just plain lazy to blog . actually i always wanted to blog . but when i log in to blogger , my mind went blank . many many things happened for the past few weeks . i cant rmb much as well .

i went for the interview today at chinatown . i got a weird interviewer and the things that she asked me i totally did not expect it man seriously . she stunned me for a few moments that made me lost for words . anyway . MON SHALL BE MY FIRST DAY OF WORK ALR ! nervous ehs . HAHA ! ohya . the name of the company is LDS delivery service and i'm working as a admin assistant :D WEEEEEEE . but must wait until aft confirmation before they rise my pay . if not the pay alittle pathetic seh ! but actually still alright nah . cos better than lazing ard at hm mahs :D

many things happened between me and boy . but since it's over and things are going back to the right path alr so no point saying abt it anymore . hopefully things will move on the right track again . the past few days are just nightmares that i nv want them to happen again . iloveyousomuchboy! <3<3<3

2009-11-13T03:16:00.003+08:00

I'M SOOOO HAPPY AND EXCITED AT THE SAME TIME !!
why why ?! because i'm a grandma alr . HAHA ! dearest become grandpa liao . cos my darling hamster gave birth to 6 baby hamsters . but the first baby died . i'm still super excited . feel like peeping at them but i scared i will scare the mum den she eat up the baby . but luckily me and dearest managed to video down the first baby birth :)

dearest was changing the bedding for xiao hei cos he just bought a new cage for her . and we separated the daddy away from mummy cos the vet said xiao hei was abt to give birth . but didn't expected it to be sooooo fast !

xiao hei damn cute . cos she gave birth on the roller . den she put her babies beside her . and she started running on the roller . end up her babies start to fall off the roller . den she slowly pick them up and start running again . the cycle goes on and on . but actually she vry wei da . cos she gave birth and clean her babies all by herself . salute to her !

hopefully all of them can survive through and grow up just like their parents :)
luckily we managed to witness their arrival tgt :) thank you dearest <3333

2009-11-11T03:29:00.002+08:00

bastard asshole . u promised that aft 2pm the cheque would be cleared . den i checked at ard 3pm dun have . den call u dun noe how to pick up . called thousand times . msged u soooo many times also no reply . ended up u said u think i sms the wrong person . and u said u dun wann to argue . if i checked dun have shouldn't i call u and clarify . ended up u said i got attitude problem and i also treat your bloody customer the same way . nabei ! i definately damn confirm that u didn't gave the cheque because my bank seriously dun have the ledger balance ! u confirm is used transfer one u think i ah hai ! always say u not like jw confirm wun delay the pay . ended up when i took my pay ?! EXCUSED ME HUR ! no wonder everyone dun wann to work for u . say until u are such a nice boss hur ?! damn pissed off . u were in the wrong and u said until it's my fault for giving attitude to u ! ccb !

2009-11-09T01:20:00.003+08:00

just came back from the chalet . super tired to the max . i shall upload the photos when gwen send me .

my love will be back in a few hrs time but i guess things would not be the same anymore . idk why either . i really didn't mean to hide from him because i noe that he sure cnt take it . but how u expect me to break the news to him when i dun want to lie to him . but he thinks that i'm just not bothered to let him noe . he doesn't even want to let me have a chance to explain . what else can i do ? and i guess when he reaches the airport he also wun call me :( aft waiting for sooooo long , ended up u still have to consider :(

anyway . tmr morning i'm going to the law firm for interview at 11am. damn nervous sia ! oh my tian . hopefully everything goes smoothly .

going to slp soon alr . not feeling vry well . goodnights all (:

2009-11-05T04:40:00.002+08:00

these are the things that my kellington did for me ! love you lar kerk liping ! she gave me a super big card with our memories inside :)the front of the card :)
the inside top part of the card :)

the lower part of the card :)

because the card too big . so cnt capture the whole thing .

HANDMADE OREO CHEESECAKE !

omg ! touched right . HAHA ! cos i love oreo cheesecake . really vry vry fortunate to have a friend like u man seriously . i love you kerk liping :D

mum trying to accept the fact that i'm not going to sch alr . in fact she even tried to help me look for the admin job . now everything seems to go as plan . but hor still got 4 more days till doomsday . dearest will be back alr . of course i'm happy lar . but because i haven break the news to him yet . soooo i'm really afraid of his reaction . hopefully he will understand it .

as i said . 4 more days dearest will be back . miss him loads lo :( but then daddy going to fetch u :(

pray hard that my phone will start ringing tmr morning . i shall go slp alr . damn tired these few days . and i finally managed to watch finish my police detective show alr . goodnights :)

2009-11-02T04:22:00.001+08:00

feeling damn miserable now . BOO ! :(
i need you boy .

2009-10-28T04:33:00.000+08:00

birthday finally over alr . full of surprises ! i like . HAHA !! loves all of them :) dearest jocelyn and ederlyn surprised me at np while i was waiting for eugene and tao yan gui . i was still worried that eder might lost her way lo . HAHA ! ended up soooo shocked !
the 2 masterminds that made me feel soooo touched and i'm loss for words ! <33> besties and the crazy camwhoring night at rp :)
surprises at LG !

ah hong :)

ah qiang :)

bearbear :)

ah hao :)

i shall let the pics do the talking . shall update properly on my next post . more pics in fb :)

i seriously miss my boy alot :( 12 more days . BOO !

THANK YOU TO ALL MY LOVELY FRIENDS ! I REALLY APPRECIATE IT ALOT !! LOVE U ALL <3333

2009-10-22T04:08:00.002+08:00

pol-ite ended alr . we lost to sp just by 2 goals :( gonna rest for 1 week before training going to resume . hope my knees and ankle can recover soon . BOO ! aft game the physio ic-ing my leg . damn it . knees start complaining again . sigh !

i just hate ic-ing my leg . cos whenever it starts to rain . my knees will start to pain and the pain is seriously unbearable . i think it's time to go for physio alr :/ BOO !

i miss dearest soooo much soooo much ! 18 more days and u will be back . FASTER COME BACK DARLING ! i seriously miss u alot :(

i shall go slp alr . vry tired . tmr still got sch . oh ya . i shall blog more often cos mark daddy wants me to blog more . HAHA ! hopefully u will go back to training cos i miss playing on court with u ! daddy mark i miss u la ! :)

2009-10-19T02:12:00.003+08:00

pol-ite started alr . sooooo true that i was actually banned to play the first 2 games . how sad could this get . i lost the chance to play on court but luckily i was given the chance back for the 3rd game . i played 2 quarters and coach was satisfied with my performance :) hopefully i can even last longer .first game against np :) TEAM REPUBLIC :)

HAHA !! i was trying to intercept that ball . but i think ended up failed right ?

rp's center pass . panic :/

dearest came to my hse today aft work . was supposed to go down to his work place to buy my hamsters de things . but ended up i overslept . went behind de coffeeshop to have our dinner . HAHA !! had steamboat and talked soooo much ! i love :)) and we watched a real live show(inside joke) . dearest damn funny la . HAHA !! boy going to fly off tmr afternoon alr . he will only be back aft 21 days and i sooooo gonna miss him :( BOO !! i soooooo gonna miss you my love :( time faster pass !

i love you <33

2009-10-12T03:24:00.001+08:00

work at np today . whole day didn't managed to eat . super hungry . dun noe why these 2 days got soooo many customers . HAHA !! but my commission damn high . happy like siao . HAHA !!

fri's match with zenith was hell ! i did the silliest mistake and was scolded until i cried on court . dearest thought what happened to me and he came to sch to fetch me hm . cried all the way hm . idk what actually happened that day . now i dun have any more confidence to play on court and tmr is the first game for our pol-ite . i suddenly feel sooooo crap ! yes i know i sux ! BOO !! still very affected by that day :(

dearest's mum surprised me today . HAHA !! she is super nice lo . she bought the mango pudding and asked dearest's sis to pass to me . xia si me to the max lo . xie xie ni aunty :)
the 2nd surprise was dearest bought 2 baby hamsters for me as my bday present !! i have been eyeing on them for quite sometime alr . thank you dearest . this is our ah boy slping :)
still slping !

the male hamster kept on slping but the female hamster damn damn active . keep disturbing the male and make him wake up den slp back . she kept running here and there non stop . but i love them :)

some of the overdue pics :
steamboat at bugis with dearest :)
our food :)
my ai xin dinner dearest cook for me on fri . HAHA !! cos i super hungry and damn no mood . thankyou dearest :) and and sorry for making you worry on fri :/

KL TRIP PICS :

camwhoring in the hotel room before checking out of the hotel :)

match against MUCH UNIVERSITY :)

inside MUCH UNIVERSITY :)

match against HELP UNIVERSITY :)

TEAM REPUBLIC :)

me and sonia . i love this pic . idk why also :)

TEAM REPUBLIC :) aft debrief in faz's room :)

MIDNIGHT CYCLING PICS :

bj besties when we were resting at the bus stop :)

us with the lanterns :)

loveus :)

before setting off to changi :)

both dearest and our babies are slping . i also going to slp soon alr .

thank you dearest for everything . iloveyou :)

6 more days :( BOO !!

2009-10-08T03:34:00.006+08:00

idk why i cant upload photos here . blogger just dun allow me to do soooo :(

sch reopen alr . and yay i only have 4 days per week . HAHA !! every wed off but still have to go back sch for training :/ but nvm nah . dearest off day also diff :)

went midnight cycling with bj besties on sat night . dearest was super sweet to surprise me la . made me feel soooo paisehs cos i screamed soooo loudly at the hawker . the attention was all on me . HAHA !! but thank you dearest :) plus chong tian . HAHA !! although i know u were vry tired from work alr but u still made the effort to come down all the way to east coast to surprise me . HAHA !!<33
we actually decided to ride all the way to changi for nasi lemak but we lost our way halfway through . we took 4 hrs plus and we reached tanan merah . HAHA !! took a rest and we decided to go back to east coast . and guess what . we only took 1 hr to reach back to east coast . we were all feeling super super tired alr . all our butts were super pain . HAHA !! but we had fun tgt :) had mac breakfast before heading home .

ohya . last fri went to pasir ris to acc dearest at work . had breakfast tgt like finally . but but abit sad la . his shop got newcomer . den i only can watch my show . HAHA !! but my show nice ehs . HAHA !! skipped training cos i got bad headache . aft which head back to yishun . supposed to go hm alr . cos super super tired but ah hao meet dearest for dinner . soooo i tag along lo . HAHA !! :)

ytd me and dearest went shopping . HAHA !! cos he off . happy like siao can . HAHA !! okay i know i siao . we went to eat steamboat at bugis . i really enjoy myself ytd <3333
match with safsa today plus the last selection for pol-ite . something unfortunate happened to maggie's son . coach asked me to follow him to the wake tmr cos he said i knew maggie better . when i heard abt the news i stunned for awhile . and idk why also :(
i shall go slp alr . tmr going to sch . super super tired . tmr working at pasamalam like finally :) shall update again soon :)

and my dearest have been very very sweet these few days . he made me feel like a princess . thankyou dearest . iloveyou <3333
count down 12 more days and u will be away for 21 days :((( booooo!!

2009-09-25T20:09:00.002+08:00

I know I mia for quite sometime alr . My blog is sooooo dead la !!

I'm working now but no customers at all . Oh my tian ! I think tonight I break the record alr lo . Now alr 8plus but my sales only $10 -.- . Die liao lo :(

was watching tang xing feng bao just now and my handsome guy died la . Den sooooo touching lo den like usual I cried la . Stupid kuku bird -.- . But the show getting nicer and nicer to watch . The girl I tell u she is damn chio lo :)

ytd dearest went to kallang to watch my match . Sooooo damn happy *SMILE BIG BIG* first time lo . Even my kor kor ah hong also shocked ! Haha !! Love u many many nah :)

I going to kl tmr with rp netballers and I haven't start packing my bag yet . Oh my tian ! Sooooo many things to bring la . Die -.- poh bi come back no injuries :/

I will have a proper update when I get back my lappy :) goodbye :)

we are 5months old alr . iloveyoulionellimmanymany :) muackks <3333333

2009-08-24T03:47:00.004+08:00

daddy where are you ? i miss u badly :(
called him today on the way hm but his phone was off . wanted to go his hse and visit him but he's either not at hm or busy or uncontactable :( sad-ed .

if ever the day comes when i have to really give up that particular thing that i love , i don't know how i will react . aft all i have been playing for soooo many years alr . the love , the passion , the fire :(

i want to continue playing . i want i want !!
goodbye . i'm going to slp alr . nites all . damn moody nw :( humph !
i miss dearest :(

2009-08-22T00:09:00.005+08:00

dearest have been vry sweet these few days . wed he off he came over to my hse to look for me . when i wake up jiu saw him lo . HAHA !! den he waited for me to prepare then we went to suki sushi to eat :)
happily eating his food only :)
aft that wanted to watch movie at amk hub . but the show quite late then we went over to j8 and watched . saw my dearest yi tui ah kian . HAHA !! super super long nv see her alr . den dearest was soooo bored that he went to play the machine . den ah kian stunned . cos we used $1 to catch her toys . HAHA !! but we nv take the toys la .

i think dearest regretted bringing me to watch the show lo . HAHA !! cos i kept scaring him accidentally . HAHA !! who asked me to be soooo dan xiao . stupid kuku bird . HAHA !! i hope i can be more brave lo . but like cnt ehs . no cure ah . HAHA !!

nowadays i will be at hm super early ah . cos nw 7th mth . i scared lo . see my dan sooooo small only . HAHA !!

went to np look for tao yan gui just nw for dinner . tot dearest going hm aft work but he suddenly pop out of nowhere . xia si me lo . aft that awhile tao yan gui went to meet her friend den i went hm alr . see i soooo guai . LOL !

on the way hm i suddenly got the urge to go look for dad . but too bad i called him he at temple cos he said today got the walking . den he busy aft that he hanged my phone lo :( damn sad-ed . den idk why on the way hm like mood swing lo . vry pek cek but dk pek chek abt what .

oh ya my dearest was super nice to help me rent the whole ep of EU . cos the website that show cant load at all . HAHA !! soooo sweet :) *SMILE BIG BIG* HAHA !! i shall go watch my show alr :)
i love my bf <33

2009-08-17T01:39:00.002+08:00

went out with liping ytd . feeling vry vry excited cos finally can leave my hse feeling fresh :) cos both of us recovered . went prawning aft that . saw e2max's eugene abt 4plus . xia si me lo . HAHA !! but aft awhile more we left the place alr . cos feeling tired alr . ended up i reached hm at 7am :/ bbq-ing our prawns :)

T-A-T-A . our prawns .

i shall blog again . vry tired . nites all :)

do u know that it hurts badly when u said u are not keen to know anymore :(

2009-08-15T15:38:00.003+08:00

amazingly i'm off today . HAHA !! cos i mc until sun . but right now i'm very very happy . cos i finally recovered from 1 week of fever . that 1 week i almost died !! super xin ku . fever on and off . couldn't slp at night . and i broke my own record lo . my highest temperature went up to 41.8 degrees lo . mum almost send me to the hospital but didn't cos the temperature went down aft that . wed finally no more fever alr . but ended up at night the fever came back again . and thurs no choice i went to work .

then aft work supposed to meet sharon for dinner at yishun before going hm . but ended up stupid him ask me take cab all the way to changi airport to deliver the matt screen protector . qi si me la . knn she dun noe how to fetch us hm wann lo . fetch us until hougang . i almost died there alr la . den i no choice took a cab hm . den esmond at amk take bus hm .

then at night my temperature goes up again lo . vry xin ku until i cried lo . u noe the feeling vry tired cnt slp , vry hungry but no appetite . den fri afternoon dearest came over to look for me . actually he say intended to to go watch movie with ah hao de . but i damn xin ku so he bring me go see doc again lo . the doc almost freak me out lo . wanted to take blood test . xia si me to the max can . luckily nv take if not i think i will faint . HAHA !! cos the doc suspected dengue . cos fever more than 5 days alr . but the doc de medicine really power sia !! i recovered alr . wohoo . say goodbye to the nightmare !!

THANK YOU EVERYONE FOR YOUR CARE AND CONCERN . THANK YOU THANK YOU !!

THANK YOU DEAREST FOR BRINGING ME GO SEE DOCTOR AND PEI-ING ME FOR THE DAY . <3333

2009-08-08T02:01:00.000+08:00

like finally i met up with my dearest sister kerk liping !! super super long nv meet her alr lo . HAHA !! we went to pasir ris to look for baby den actually wanted to go bugis walk walk de . but ended up we waited for baby to end work den went back to yishun to meet up with the rest . we went to eat nasi lemak at changi village den to cine . went hm bathe alr straight away KO . HAHA !!
some of the overdue pics : at safra party worldscissor , paper , stone :)
one , two , three , four , five :)

sharon , eileen and karen :)

first car :)

my tao yan gui :)

camwhoring camwhoring !!

hopefully her back faster recover . if not vry vry xin ku wann . get well soon tao yan gui :)

my bj besties :)

and and i'm no longer working at prize stage alr . those customers stop calling me and asking me whether the stocks arrive alr mahs . damn irritating !! oh ya . my starhub line reconnect back alr . so i will be using both num . can contact me through both :)

i have not been watching my police show cos the show just won't load . irritating :( i shall go slp alr . super tired . working tmr . nites all :)

dearest have been super cute this few days . HAHA !! i love my uncle lim <333

2009-08-02T23:49:00.003+08:00

woke up super early today . super super tired . went to j8 with mum , da sao , aunties , cousin and babies !! HAHA !! my cutie pie and baby bryan damn cute . we went to swensen to eat . aft that baby bryan wanted to eat ice cream . i tell u he damn cute . he keep reminding sheryl to bring him go buy ice cream . HAHA !! den i carried baby ashlynn to find ser min and then to mac to look for the rest . my cutie pie damn active den halfway through no strength den i faster put her on the barney seat let her play . HAHA !! look at her enjoying :) aft that baby ashlynn went hm with da sao . cos da sao's mum came to fetch her . den baby bryan wanted to sit the car . look at him . so happy :)
me and first car when we went sentosa that day . look at my sleepy eyes . HAHA !!

super tired so i went hm bathe alr den went to slp until 8plus . den dearest damn sweet . pop out of nowhere with my dinner and my fav teh peng !! i got a shocked lo . xia si me . suddenly got ppl knocked the door sooo hard . i thought what happened lo . den i opened the door . HAHA !! my lips curved upwards . SMILE BIG BIG !! HAHA !!
love u many many dearest <333 muackks !

2009-08-02T04:31:00.005+08:00

i ♥ my dearest bf <333baby and mum damn funny . HAHA !! cos mum wanted to ask baby to join us for cousin's farewell lunch . so i passed the phone to baby .
mum : hello uncle ah .
dearest : err . hello aunty :/

aft that baby was pouting all the way . so funny la . HAHA !! cos mum all along called him uncle cos that time mum saw my desktop pic from far and she asked me why i took a photo with an uncle . so from that time onwards mum called him uncle .

baby : i very sad lehs . 1 50 years old aunty called me uncle .
HAHA !! dearest was damn cute pouting all the way . and dearest baby called me aunty yuan . sound so weird la . but i like :p HAHA !!
saw chin hong and raymond at kpool just now . super long nv see them alr . chin hong said he gonna organise another bbq gathering . hopefully it will be successful . i miss my sec sch cliques :(
oh ya stupid kuku bird . just now i was chased by 4 giant mickey mouse . super scary la . i scream super super loud and cried la . super super huge sia . dk what they eat lor . asshole . i think i gonna have nightmare tonight . HAHA !! LOL !!
i shall go slp alr . nites :)

2009-07-30T00:15:00.003+08:00

went to sentosa ytd aft the meeting . super relaxing lo . but aft nua-ing there awhile den we left the place and went hm alr . talked to tao yan gui alot alot . we can only both sigh :(

life is full of problems . and we have to solve all the problems ourselves and that's why that's life :(

idk what i should do now seriously . aft talking to ah hong i still dk what to do . sigh . why like this ? maybe it's time but smth is stopping me and idk how and why :(

i shall go slp alr . tmr working . and i realised that i have been neglecting rp netball :(
ahhh . fuck spider la . damn no mood :(((

2009-07-26T23:19:00.002+08:00

have been busy working for the past few days . den aft work bu si go talk cock with them jiu si come hm and watch my police show lo . wahpiang . inspector yuen died la . bloody hell . i cried like fuck lo :( always last ep made me cried like nobody's business . den nw i watching E.U. which is the 3rd part of the show .

have been talking alot to my tao yan gui and eugene . and he was sooo nice to send me and tao yan gui hm . both of them damn funny when they started talking . and i'll nv get bored while working :)

i got sooooo much soooo much to say but idk how to start :( i shall go watch my show alr . bye :)

2009-07-21T04:16:00.002+08:00

EXPECTATIONS !
The only way not to be disappointed is to Expect .
expect things to happen .
expect things not to happen .
expect people to change .
expect people not to change .
expect people to talk .
expect people to judge .
expect to grow old .
expect to forget .
expect people to forget .
expect things to breakdown .
expect death .
expect people to lose faith .
expect people to leave .
expect people to disappoint .
expect betrayal .
expect the world to continue to deteriorate .
expect hate .
expect the economy to get worse .
expect poverty .
expect the unfair world .
EXPECT THE UNEXPECTED .

2009-07-16T03:06:00.007+08:00

I'M SOOOO TIRED OF EVERYTHING !!
was at the funeral for the past 2 days . super super long nv see joe alr . the last time i saw him i think i was in sec 2 ? he didn't changed much .

heard abt the news alr damn sad . but i know u will get well soon . don't forget u still have to pei me walk the whole of singapore aft u recover hor . still rmbed that u were the one who acc-ed me walked from marina square to amk , from east coast to amk . aft walking back to amk and u see me reached hm safely alr den u walked back hm yourself . u were my walking partner tgt with joe . but we super super long nv walk alr . i've known u for the 18++ years of my life and i know that u will be strong and u will recover soon !! and i'll be praying everyday for u .

i was blamed for finding fault :(i just need a hand to pull me up when i fall . and i hope u'll be there :)
oh my tian !! i suddenly realised today is the day !! aft 6mths of probation i'm supposed to go down and see boss . but i nv go down . omg omg . how how ?? but today he also nv jump . which means nxt wed i die die must go down . but die . oh my tian !! ah boy kor de boss not coming and he's working and i doubt sotong kor will go down . oh my tian oh my tian !! shit !!

2009-07-13T04:53:00.004+08:00

just finished watching 学警雄心 . damn sad lo . my 李sir died la . soooo sad lo . stupid . make me cry like tap water flowing for free . i'm damn bad at these lo . everytime watched show as if some people passed away . that's why my mum cnt stand me watching show :/ and i just found out got 2nd part . wohoo . but damn sad . no more 李sir . HAHA !!

i also damn sad to hear the news . seeing mum sitting down there keep telling me things make me feel damn heart pain . that's life . we have to go through some day .

xiong xiong kao fu . may u rest in peace .

2009-07-12T03:33:00.005+08:00

i didn't went to work today and have been resting at hm the whole day . cos i'm sick :( boooo ! my friends have been jokingly saying that i've h1n1 . kns . cos i have all the symptoms :( ROAR !! but aft resting for the whole day i'm feeling much better alr . and thanks to all those who cared :) loves u all many many . HAHA !! hopefully i can go work tmr . was inside the super super big machine . HAHA !! cos i'm too short to reached inside to arrange the toys . so i climbed in lor . den they were playing trying to lock me inside and catching me . HAHA !!

that day my dearest bestie came to my hse to use the lappy for her project . and while she was busy doing her project . i started to do silly things .
i started drawing at the back of her foolscape . HAHA !! ( the loves me is i add on )
den i started tying her hair . HAHA !!
cos i was super super bored and she got no time to entertain me . HAHA !! i miss the days when we used to do those silly things tgt . HAHA !! that is how we find our own entertainment :)

KERK LIPING YOU KNOW I LOVE YOU !! AND I'M REALLY THANKFUL FOR ALL THE THINGS THAT YOU HAVE DONE FOR ME !! LOVE YOU MANY MANY AND LOVE YOU DEEP DEEP :)) *smile big big*
i'm thankful to have a friend like u !!

i wann to play L4D . baby faster find a way to install into my lappy okay ? :) i'm sooo happy to see him smile when he doted the mickey and minnie that i've caught for him . and i can't help but to keep wanting to box their heads . HAHA !! seeing his funny reaction makes my smile curve upwards :)) iloveyoudearest <333
LASTLY , HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DEREST COACH ! HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOTHER HENG !! WE LOVE YOU :)

2009-07-07T02:42:00.010+08:00

S-M-I-L-E-S :D
storm's over . i'm happy *smile big big :))*

i didn't mean to do that today . but aft reading that msg and plus the way u treated me these few days makes my thinking go wild . but i'm glad that all the misunderstandings are over . i'm sorry boy . cos i'm afraid that u might do the same thing as what he did to me :/ but i melted when i heard the things u said to me *BIG SMILE :D* weeee <33333i'm happy cos baby thinks that is sweet to fetch him from work . weeee :D (i know is random but i just want to say :/ bleahs )
i cant help but to keep thinking abt what daddy told u . that sentence keep occurring in my mind . what can i do ??
on the other hand . i think that mum is vry upset that i nv go down temple for vry vry long . but she kept quiet . i began to feel vry vry distant towards my own religion . saw mum burning the kim zhua . i wanted to help but she say nvm . come to think abt it . it has been thousand years since i last took the joss stick at hm . i'm sorry boss . i know u'll understand :( i also miss those days . i have not been to big day for 3 freaking times alr . my bad :( and i doubt i'll be going anymore :((
i love my boyfriend *weeeee*

2009-07-04T02:23:00.006+08:00

my dearest cutie pie :)) loves her to the max :))

i'm upset right now :(( i still think that i'm a nobody to u ! bye !

2009-07-01T23:36:00.001+08:00

I THINK I'M JUST A NOBODY TO YOU :(

2009-06-29T23:56:00.006+08:00

i happened to see this email .
"1、她看到你跟别的女生亲近一些就会生气（别说她小气，不信任你，她其实是在吃醋，这表示她十分在乎你）
2、她爱忧伤，爱掉泪（别怪她多愁善感，她只是缺乏安全感，你要知道，她很少会为别人流泪）
3、跟你在一起总爱玩失踪（别说她淘气，吓唬你，她只是爱看你急着找她的样子，证明一下她对你来说是重要的）
4、说：如果你不要她，她就去死（不要说她威胁你，她只是告诉你，对她来说，你比一切都重要）
5、她总假装生气转身离开（记住，她不是真地想走，离开时想要被挽留）
6. 她会突然冷淡你，或向你撒娇（别怪她孩子气，她只是想让你哄哄她）
7、.出去吃饭，她吃得很少说吃不了了，让你替她吃（别说她挑食或者浪费，她只是怕你吃不饱）
8、她总说她会帮你，让你有事找她（其实她知道她帮不了你什么，她只想让你知道你还有她，她永远在你身边陪你）
9、她说：我不高兴了（不要怪她无理取闹，她不是真的不开心，只是想你了，只是想要你几句安慰的话，哪怕是：乖~别闹了~）
10、她总说自己又胖了或者长得不够漂亮（不要觉得她嫉妒别人，她只是怕在你眼中不够完美）
11、她总说你看谁谁谁他们怎么怎么样（不要说她贪慕虚荣，总羡慕别人，她只是想让你知道怎样做能使她高兴）
12、她总是问：你在哪？你干什么呢？（她很关心你，只是想跟你说说话，你不给她发信息，她很矛盾，怕你在忙，但又忍不住想你，换了别人，爱干嘛干嘛，她不关心，所以请你一有时间就问候她一下，让她放心，让她知道你心里有她，她总是主动联系你，她会觉得她贱）
13、她说：天冷了，记得多穿衣服~ （不要嫌她烦，不要说她像你妈，你妈妈有时可能都比不上她对你的关心，换了别人，冻死也不关她的事，她知道你不傻，她只想让你知道她心里有你） 14、她说你看谁多有钱，长得多帅（你不用生气，在她眼里，你是最好的，她只是想让你为了她努力奋斗）
15、她不分场合的抱你，吻你（她不是炫耀什么，只是想让别人知道你俩有多好）
16、不论是过马路还是走在哪，她用手死死拽住你的胳臂（不要说她粘人，她只是告诉你她信任你）
17、她总是走在你的左边（不要说她多事，她只是想离你的心更尽一些）
18、在买东西时她总征求你的意见（别说她没主见，依赖你，她只是尊重你，凡事以你为先） 19、买东西她总买便宜的（别说她小气，她只是想为你省钱）"

HAHA !!okay la . i noe i vry random !! cos vry bored and nth to blog abt :/ HAHA !!

lesser meetups lesser talks on the phonebut i believe our hearts still link as one <33eee . HAHA !!baby i miss u much :))

2009-06-29T03:35:00.005+08:00

gwen finally send me the pics alr :)) i miss working at bj zoo and ns :( my bj besties :))

before i went to slp ytd i asked mum that qns that i all along wanted to ask . i almost bang the wall when i heard her ans . she say die also dont need to think abt it . it will nv ever happened . made me cried sooo hard . why like this ??!! i'm becoming more and more cry baby these few days :(
dad :)mum :)

i can never have the two pictures combined tgt ;(

2009-06-28T02:37:00.003+08:00

ytd went to pasir ris to celebrate baby ashlynn's bday . she damn damn cute nah . i shall wait for da sao to come hm den send me the photos . ytd i was slping at hm den mama carried her and she started hitting me wanting me to wake up . HAHA !! den mama go bath left me and her . den i put my that super big tigger tail ard her neck and she xia dao lo . her facial expression damn cute . HAHA !!

met liping and went down tgt . aft that we went to escape theme park with my cousin . the first ride i tell u . damn funny . HAHA !! me and liping xia si to the max la . cos we vry vry long nv sit those rides alr . den we kept squeezing each other . in fact is i squeeze her lo . den my cousin keep laughing at us . HAHA !! soooo much fun :))

as usual temple ppl kept saying that i mia sooooo long . HAHA !! die die . my 6 mths probation going to be up soon lo . den sotong kor dun wann to help me . and ah boy kor not ard to help me . die lo . faint . and and alicia is still as cute :)) dk why jj nv come . HAHA !! random .

was a little upset ytd . i dun understand why we cnt take photo tgt lo . damn sad-ed lo :( anyway thanks da sao . at least u did help :) and u noe i love u . HAHA !!

i love dearest to the MAX !! he makes my smile curve upwards <33iloveyoulionellim <333

2009-06-25T06:13:00.006+08:00

met up with bj besties on tues night for dinner . spell out F-U-N !! i miss the days when we were playing and working at the same time . work was soooo much fun then . but not now :/ we kept camwhoring until like as if we were to meet 10 years ltr . HAHA !! more pics of us in gwen's cam :)) will post them once she send me :)) gwen :))
kak siti and liping :))
kak siti :))
shi fong :)) SUBWAY !! HAHA !!

my dearest sis :)) from msia . HAHA !!

she said i've changed alot ??

aft that we went kpool awhile den i went over to first car's hse . cos i miss her mum den dearest going so i tag along . HAHA !! her mum damn cute when she asked for both me and dearest num :)) and stella kept calling me ah lian in kpool . so loud some more . damn paisehs la !!

dad today dropped a bomb onto me . made me cried sooooooooo hard . i cnt accept the fact lo . and unknowingly my tears just keep coming out . oh my tian . but i cnt do anything :(( sigh . u wont understand that things will not gonna be the same again . never again !!

met liping for dinner and stella and kak siti came over awhile and aft that me and liping head to bishan park nua abit . that gal dun allow me to drink finish everything that we ordered lo . and we saw wei kang over there and gave him our drinks . walked over to my hse there and liping took a cab hm . we talked soooooo much soooooo much . sigh . there were many if only .

if only we can go back to the past . i would definately be very fortunate now . with a very very happy family and every sun would be my family day . but somehow we cant go back to the past . i'm still very very upset over what dad told me . sigh !!

i shall stop saying alr if not i'm going teary again . nites all . bye !

dad u will not understand how i felt when i heard that . u noe that the things that i've always wanted badly will never ever come true when u made that decision . things will never ever be the same again . but i've got no choice i have to accept it . but sorry not now . give me some time . i hope u will really be very fortunate . and sorry sorry for being soooo selfish !!

baby we are two months old :))

love you many many :))

2009-06-22T02:00:00.002+08:00

work was crazy for the past few days . tired to the max . but the thought of me getting my pay makes me want to work more . money come to me pls . HAHA !!

ytd aft work went to meet teck ying , sean , sher , chew ming and kevin at mustafa . aft that went to yishun dam awhile before heading hm . first time ever i sat in sean and chew ming's car . i want to get my license too . i want to DRIVE !! was camwhoring in sean's car while he's driving . HAHA !!
sean the fat man driving :)
teck ying :))

we like ah siao cos the wind was blowing our hair everywhere .

sean :))

while waiting for the rest to buy drinks at the petrol station :))

kevin :))

sher :))

and we had our seahorse biscuits . HAHA !!

i miss the days when we were in sec sch :(

reached hm at abt 6plus going to 7 den slp awhile and supposed to go work at 1130am . but i overslept like mad . was working with first car . long time since i work tgt with her . and i reached bishan at 430pm :/ had fun working with her :))

people do change and i'm not surprised that u've changed as well . u are not the same :(( and i'm a little depressed . pls dont give me that bo chap attitude . i dont like :((

baby i miss u :(

but we were both busy with our own work :((

2009-06-19T02:44:00.002+08:00

mum : mei ah . that uncle going to baby's bday mahs ?
me : huh ? which uncle ?
mum : that uncle on your desktop lo . yr hp de wallpaper .
me : HAHA !!
that 'uncle' that mum was referring to was boyfriend . HAHA !! mum keep saying that he vry old la . she trying to be funny luh huh . HAHA !! poor boy . but that conversation really damn random la . baby u got to admit that u are old . *wink wink*

went to the petrol station to buy some tidbits .
aunty at the cashier : xiao mei your hair is let ppl cut de or what ?
me : huh ? ya lo . but i super long nv go cut hair alr .
aunty : oh chey . i tot what happened . why got a hole behind yr head there .
me : huh ? what hole ?
aunty : oh i think nw is the trend la . i see the streets everybody cut this hairstyle . i tot u go sch yr teacher dun like yr hair den cut for u .
me : zzzz
that aunty trying to be funny luh . kns . faint !! ya la . i'm going to cut my hair real soon . cos i got no time .
idk why today ppl talk soooo weirdly to me :/

2009-06-18T15:42:00.005+08:00

finally baby is back from genting . he came back on sun night :)) was rushing here and there for his gift . gan jiong to the max la . den mon night meet dearest liping to finish up his gift . den he xia si me la . he wanted to come over . den make me gan jiong like crazy . but luckily he went hm .

did his gift until almost 5plus am and went hm . but is half done only cos i lack of materials . den no choice the nxt day morning have to rush and buy . rush here and there den finally it's done . very very excited to see his reaction lo . HAHA !! his gift :)
we went to the super super dark playground to collect sand for the gift . but ended up we changed our mind and decided not to use sand . thank you dearest liping :)
dearest liping was bored while waiting for me to finish doing the gift soooo she draw for him :))

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BOY :))

<3333 angela and me :))

me and ah hong :))

finally everything over alr . can rest alr . HAHA !! happy birthday boy . hope u like everything that we have done for u :)) loveyoumanymany :p HAHA !!

mum damn funny ytd . she asked me izzit wanna become a christian alr . HAHA !! cos today temple big day until sun and i'm not going down any single day . die die . i cnt go down nah . if not sure die .

my dearest boyfriend is sick . oh my tian . hopefully he faster recover . heartpain ah . HAHA !! u better be guai and drink more water if not i smack your pi pi i tell u !!

okay la . i shall go work alr . shall update again . byebye .

2009-06-14T02:19:00.002+08:00

went for game at kallang today . on the way met fiona and talked all the way in the bus :)) we really missed mother heng's training :( anyway . we lost the game against police and J and sam said that i will be like them in the future !! kns . sooo funny lo . they looked soooo man la . even their voice lo . HAHA !! we are totally diff :p

aft that went to ps to buy smth and look for ah kian . talked to her alot alot . HAHA !! i miss her lo :( aft that waited for stella gwen and liping and we went to bugis to eat steamboat cos i was craving for steamboat :)) we had sooo much fun and laughter . gwen was soooo funny . she said the red date was grape and she kept putting on my plate . soooo funny . den when she nv notice we put inside her cup and she happily drink finish the whole cup until the end when we leaving den she notice lo . HAHA !! :)
me and gwen :))

liping and stella :))

baby is coming back tmr . i miss him alot alot :(( and tmr i'm working at np alone . oh my tian . soooo scary :((

2009-06-12T00:20:00.005+08:00

was away for 3 days 2 nights for netball camp . it was fun but super super tiring !! was waiting for night training to start :)
nabbie nab nab :))
hui min and kexian :))

went to sch at ard 10 plus pm aft meeting baby for awhile . aft which he went out and i went sch lo . when lights out alr we nv slp lo . ended up we talking abt our jing bao topic . damn funny !! and the tents getting lesser and lesser(inside joke) . HAHA !!
ard 2 plus everyone went to slp alr and i as usual cnt slp !! so i ended up staring into space until 5plus am !! and woke up at 7am in the morning !!

wed early in the morning got beep test lo . but i gave up halfway . was a little disappointed with the results but cnt blame cos my knees were complaining . den aft that have light training . rested awhile and watched movie inside the briefing room . fall aslp halfway through the movie . cos super tired . aft that moved to agora hall with our stuffs and nua abit before training starts again . and while playing game the last quarter i bang against naz and i fall and cant really walk . urgent carried me all the way to the toilet to bath . thanks urgent :))

den today we went to ecp earlier with kexian to setup the things for the amazing race thingy . but i didnt play . was looking aft their bags . cos i cant walk properly . overall the camp was quite fun :))
ah tan's team came in first :))
urgent's came in 2nd :))
followed by lihui's team :))
lastly ke ke's team :))

and and we totally forget abt the tofu smashing thingy on the last 2 teams :(
and for the last station the teams have to sing a song for me and sam . this was vry random cos we both were vry vry bored . it was damn funny !!
that's all for the camp :))

i almost lost baby last night . was really really vry vry vry unhappy over what he said . i really dun have that intention lo . but since it's over den i shall not think abt it alr .
baby u once promised me that u wont assume things without getting the facts right but u still did it and u made me teared once again :((

2009-06-06T06:26:00.006+08:00

was busy with work and training for the whole week . super tired . and that asshole have been cutting our commission !! asshole . today also cut . kns !!
thurs that malay baby girl came again . she is super super cute la . she saw me sitting inside one of the machine that side hole and she copied me . HAHA !! see . she is super super cute right :))
she even know that i was taking her pic la . HAHA !! and she kept running away from me . so cute !!

she was super super bored that whichever machines that her parents went . she pushed the chair everywhere . but her dad say when she is outside she is super cute . but when she is at home she is a little devil . HAHA !!

i shall blog again . super tired !! morning all :)) HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY TO KOH CHEW MING !!

2009-06-01T01:21:00.002+08:00

is there a place for me to stay away from all those shitty things ?? even just for a night i'll be happy . cos i really need a break seriously !! i want to shout , scream and cry !! i feel very very miserable right now !! :'( why like this ??

2009-05-31T05:16:00.004+08:00

somewhere between all our laughs , long talks , stupid little fights and all our jokes , i fell in love :))
i love the every little time that we spend tgt :))
i love it
when you always wann to make me feel irritated with that irritating face .
when you keep telling me abt the lan die hua yun you shen bu .
when you get soooo concentrated playing the arcade driving game .
when you always laugh at me being sooooo timid .
when i know that you are always worrying abt me .
when u get angry over little things that i did .
u give that face when i say u cnt multi task .
i love your hugs and kisses .
BOY i just love everything that you have done for me .
and i really meant what i say . iloveyoulionellim :))

i shall go slp alr . before this gonna be a long post . shall have a proper post soon when i have the time . nites all :)) i'm still a very fortunate girl :p

2009-05-27T17:07:00.002+08:00

one problem coming aft another . if i got the ability i would solve alot alot of problems alr . no need to feel so fan . sigh . seeing him feeling so fan yet i cant do anything to help makes me feel vry vry sucky :/ why like this ??

mama noe abt baby's presense afew days ago alr . but she nv say anything . HAHA !! da sao we worry too much alr nah . HAHA !!

and another thing damn damn sad . cos baby going to australia(i think cos i cant rmb that country) for a month for reservist in oct :((((( which means he no need to go back in june . sigh :((((

shall blog again . bye

2009-05-26T01:31:00.003+08:00

training today was slack but tiring . HAHA !! coach was not there cos he having national training . HAHA !!

i know that deep down you care and worried abt me alot . i'm sorry but i really hope you can let me continue playing . idk why it is so difficult for me to give up on that . but i just really hope to continue playing .

baby and i are a month old alr :)) i love every bits of him . he is still super sweet . iloveyoulionellim :))

2009-05-20T02:37:00.002+08:00

went to look for B today before going to work . HAHA !! dearest boy was super nice to lend me his sim card so that he can contact me . i really appreciate it alot . thanks dear :))

saw my gf at work today . she make me soooo envy . HAHA !! cos she dyed her hair blue . very very nice . i also want lo . but my hair alr chui cnt dye . but the nxt time round she say she gonna dye for me :))

and for the rest of the month i gonna eat grass alr . cos this mth no commission for me to take . super super sad-ed la . i tot still got commission for me to take la . at least still can let me survive until pay day but today hua ping say jw not giving cos last mth we nv hit target . very very -.- . so i think for the rest of the mth i shall stay at hm alr :(( oh my tian . faint lo .

my ankle still swollen ehs and there's training tmr . no choice have to go . but i think B gonna get angry with me . but i will guai guai ice my leg aft training wann . promise !!

i shall go slp alr . super super tired . nites all :)) loves .
如果我们是来自不同世界的人，
我们是否能长久？

2009-05-19T01:27:00.004+08:00

enl started today and we won our first game against SRC juniors . saw my dearest coach . super happy lo . i miss her damn alot sia . i missed her trainings and going out tgt to eat . i juz missed everything abt her and not forgeting mother chung :))

met my dearest daddy ytd with baby for supper . seeing him make me quite emotional . plus he keep telling me abt that . damn sad lo . when he went hm alr i juz cnt control lo . my tears like free de lo . baby was right . maybe i should stand in his shoe and think abt his feelings . i was harsh with words ytd too . i noe that daddy was alr trying vry hard to make me accept that but i'm stubborn . i dont want to give in to her . i still cnt accept the fact .
i shall blog again . totally got no mood :( and i might be quitting netball as well . still thinking abt it :(( thank you baby for lending me your shoulder ytd night . iloveyou :))

2009-05-13T15:48:00.002+08:00

i think i should just forget abt the dream of being inspector . idk why either . i think i wont be able to get that far alr . cos i feel like giving up right now .

my stomach hurts like fuck now . omfg !! and i'm hungry like an ass now !! HAHA !!

2009-05-12T02:59:00.002+08:00

i'm still depressed over what dad told me that day :(( maybe i should really stand at his point of view and think abt how he feels . but but i still cnt accept it :(( why must it be her ?? i hate her to the max la . but maybe like what baby and liping said . i should really care abt how he feels and let him do the things that he wanted . but hor the tot of it makes me feel sooooo crap la . omfg !! but on a happier side . daddy gonna move hse and he stay soooo NEAR to me :)) we will definately meet up more regularly de . wohoo :))

if u think that i'm always lying to u den so be it .i got nth to say . cos even if i told u the truth u also wun believe it . cos u got no trust in me alr . so whatever more things i tried to explain u also will think that i'm lying . furthermore i really got nth to do with him alr and he is the one who keeps smsing me . i'm not the one who is pestering him . so before u say anything pls try to get things right before saying hurtful things to me . i know u also dun kan hao me and B . maybe u think that the friendship between me and u is nth . but let me tell u . i really cherish the friendship between us . the rest is up to u to decide whether i'm saying the truth .

i got the urge to quit sch :( but i think alot ppl gonna kill me :((

2009-05-08T16:01:00.002+08:00

it has been a long time since i updated my blog . been really busy recently . with work and trainings . it has been a tiring week for me :(( me and first car when we went to fetch B aft his work at pasir ris :))

i had a super super bad dream this morning . ended up i woke up crying . feeling soooo helpless . i really hope that dream will never ever happen . cos i wann dad to see me grow old . seeing me get married and carrying his own grandchildren . having our own family photo is the most important thing that i hope for . i really really miss dad alot alot ;(
my dearest dad :))

if i have a choice i would really want to move back to our hougang house . idk either . i love that house alot alot ;( oh crap . i shall stop nagging alr .

enl gonna start soon alr . saboteurs must jia you worhs !! i shall go down and support u all when i got no training or match . but dk how come the fixtures for rp haven come out yet . wonder who we playing against lo .

thanks B for everything u have done for me . i really appreciate it alot alot .
i really feel very fortunate . THANK YOU !! iloveyou :))

2009-05-04T00:53:00.003+08:00

why like this ?? why does it happened again ?? stupid shit . i wann to shout shout shout !! arggghs fuck !!

but on the happier side my bf still dote me :)) HAHA !! i shall go slp alr . nites all :)) going to sch tmr :))

2009-05-01T03:30:00.001+08:00

my first car karen :))
dearest B :))
B trying to act cool only lo .

met first car and baby ytd . and i know B loves karen the most and i love karen too . HAHA !! (inside joke) we are threesome lo . hor B :))
i think B gonna kill me for posting his photo . HAHA !! but i don't care . cos u play cheat . u still owe me 29 photos hor . and i'm soooo nice not to post your unglam photos lo :p so u better treat me nice nice hor . tmr i shall go fetch u from work aft my work with first car :))

i feel soooo happy now cos me and sis okay alr . no more awkward-ness alr :)) i still love u sis . HAHA !!

ANYWAY , HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO MUM , AUNTY JANE , SER MIN AND BRO FAISAL !! all their bday falls on the 29th april . -.- sooo coincident lo !!
i'm very fortunate now :))
i have a very caring bf :))
thanks B :))
iloveyou :))

2009-04-28T10:35:00.007+08:00

was working almost everyday for the past week . super super tired . but when i reached hm i cnt get to slp . super super sad-ed lo .

many many things happened recently . went to look for baby on fri night aft working . it was F-U-N !! HAHA !!
sat night aft work at np we went to yishun safra . they played bowling . many many funny things happened . (sis send me the pics alr but i shall upload them when i'm free . HAHA !!) the unglam-ness . HAHA !! aft that cab hm and the conversation with the cab uncle when they left made me super super paisehs la . and i called B and told him . HAHA !! and B was super super confident and started assuming things . HAHA !! confident ah B !! now got wings alr can fly liao hor :p

and for the past few days was spend with B :))
B thanks for everything that u did for me .
iloveyou :)) muackks :))

2009-04-24T00:51:00.001+08:00

T I R E D
i'm tired mentally and physically :(
oh crap . i shall go slp alr . nites all :))

2009-04-23T01:03:00.005+08:00

why like this ??

why must u make things complicated ??

why must u be soooo angry ytd ??

why must she tell me the things ytd ??

why must u tell me things now ??

omg !!

how i wish dad was here :(dad i miss u !!

2009-04-20T19:11:00.003+08:00

i'm soooo happy with the friends ard me . really want to say a BIG THANK YOU !! they knew today was the first day of sch and they morning call me knowing that i will overslept .
THANK YOU
dearest liping :))
scandal gf shan :))
first car karen :))
ah kian :))
dearest urgent :))
sher :))
but i ended up nv go sch . cos my head hurts like hell as if my brains were popping out .

was working at np ytd with first car . she is damn damn funny la . idk why i got the urge to keep disturbing her . den end up she cnt stand me . HAHA !! aft that went to meet ah kian and eat . she super super funny la . i think she gonna miss me working with her alr . cos no one will disturb her while working alr . but nvm la . cyahs on tues aft sch :)) ended up i reached hm at 620am . and i fall dead on bed . tired to the max !! and she couldnt wake up on time for work as well . HAHA !!
i shall go sch tmr for sure :p
i scared tmr when i met u things will be different again :((

2009-04-19T00:50:00.003+08:00

smile like you've never done before :))
i'm happy at the moment :))
loves loves :))

2009-04-18T04:59:00.002+08:00

met the love of my life juz nw for dinner and movie . HAHA !!
sister thanks for always being there for me . to hear me rant and rant . love u lotsa :))

i couldn't get to slp and idk why . flashbacks of ytd keep coming into my mind . ah shit . ohya . and i've decided to change my blog link . cos of a particular reason . and sch is starting like in 2 days time . oh my tian and i'm soooo not prepared for it :( faint !

2009-04-17T18:48:00.003+08:00

i bought my new phone alr . super happy . but still abit retarded using the phone cos not used to it . HAHA !! i bought the icy silver de instead of pink . cos pink like dont suit me sia . cos i super chor lo .

ohya . i dyed my hair ytd . super happy with the outcome . so qiao that the gal working at chapter 2 is hong xiang de sister . xia si me la . den i cut-ed my fringe again . HAHA !! look more like mushroom head alr . HAHA !! but at least better than my previous colour :))

aft that went to eat lunch with ah kian . oh shit i think i going to owe her $10 cos of the bet that we bet with each other . i think i losing alr lo . shit . den aft that she went back to work and we played with the cc machine . den suddenly got a super strong burning smell . like as if the place going to explode alr lo . den si ah kian asked me go check out . scarly i kena bomb how . i super scared la . ended up we off the whole speaker machine .

cab-ed to knc for the game against stingray . was fun fun :)) idk why my ankle hurts badly again ehs . den aft that changed alr rush hm to bathe and meet him . sorry daddy i didnt go eat with u all . shall eat with u all again nxt nxt week okay :))

i'm a little disappointed that things turn out this way .
the image keep flashing in my mind .
and made me went sleepless the whole night :(
idk why u must do that to spoil the image of yourself in my heart :((
disappointed :((

2009-04-14T00:40:00.006+08:00

went to knc juz nw to play against singtel . i think my right eyebrow will have a big baluku tmr . HAHA !! cos i knocked onto kelvin accidentally . den he elbow me . who ask us got such a big height difference :/ he is super super tall la .

aft that went to eat kfc with the rest and went to look at chester's new bike . super super nice lo . how i wished i can own a car . HAHA !!

something strike me offguard ytd . i didnt expect that to happen and as usual it affect me abit :/ why does it still affect me when i say i dun care alr . sigh :((

2009-04-12T02:31:00.003+08:00

ytd was working at cine den go over to ms . so funny . one of the customer wanted to play the sweetland but didnt noe how to play . den i explained to her how to play and she got what she wanted and she treated me drinks . so nice of her . and and she keep saying thanks so me . made me sooooo paisehs lo . HAHA !! but i really nv do much lo . i only explain to her how to play . and soooo coincident that she used to work in rp that roller blade shop . so qiao lo . no wonder at first i find her abit familiar . aft which we saw each other at mrt and i brought her to ms de shop . only awhile and she went to meet her friends . soooo nice of her and her gf . thanks so much :))

was soooooo super pissed off with that ass lo . u cnt be auto abit mehs . made me soooo broke . and i'm the last one to take pay . some more nv give cash . give cheque . muz wait until tues den can take . asshole lo . i super broke alr la .

just now went to northpoint work with sis . aft work went to chongpang to play left4dead as usual :p saw R's friend but he cnt recognise me . HAHA !! luckily lo .

tmr will be working at northpoint again . but i super scared . HAHA !! cos idk that gal . so scary lo . HAHA !! hopefully everything will be okay :)) i shall go slp alr . super super tired . nites all :))
he is coming back :))
so happy . shall meet up soon .
imu :))

2009-04-10T05:33:00.003+08:00

i saw someone today and made me sigh . although she is just a stranger but my heart sank when i saw her . idk why . cos she really resemble that someone . ah shit . let bygones be bygones . start cherishing the ppl ard me before i start regreting like what i did today .
i shall go slp alr . but the thoughts of her keep flashing back into my mind . arggghs shit . bang wall :/ nites all :))

2009-04-09T04:53:00.003+08:00

woke up late today and rush to knc for the match against cjc . HAHA !! saw daddy's dearest friend;maggie . HAHA !! she thinks that i vry fit lo . juz end a game den still asked me join them for training . vry kns la . aft that faster go bath and siam her alr lo .

ohya . i cant join saboteurs in the enl cos rp playing . sad-ed lo . but nvm la . it's okay . got other games for us to play tgt mahs :)) nxt week got alot of friendly with other jcs lo . but i'm looking forward to the game against stingray :))

aft that went to meet my dearest liping to catch up abit :)) as usual we talked for a few hours . poured everything to her . HAHA !! she is the love of my life . thanks thanks :)) aft which i walked hm .

ah shit . tmr is my ftt alr . and and i haven even start to read the book can . omg . i think i gonna fail it . *crossed fingers*. aft ftt gonna meet the rest for lan games again . wohoo :))

see our new hair cut :))

i shall go slp alr . tmr waking up early to look through the ftt book . nites all :))

is cos of his xixin-ness that makes that happened :))

2009-04-06T23:31:00.008+08:00

was working at cathay . bored to the max . but luckily phil came and he let me play the guitar hero . and now i'm soooo into it . is super super fun la . not so into left 4 dead alr . HAHA !! blk 205 regular came and we went downstairs to eat the suki sushi . not vry nice . amk nicer . and we talked quite alot . and i happened to tell them smth and i almost cried :/ but nvm la . suan alr . it's over what . i'm happier now .

went to eat lala ytd at amk central s11 with ah kian . and and i accidentally spilled the beans and told her smth . she keep giving me that cheeky smile lo . make me feel super paisehs la . and and seriously i nv expect myself to tell her abt that topic sia . seriously . cos i really nv intend to tell anyone . but idk why i told her . HAHA !! halfway through saw eugene . but he came and left aft awhile cos he vry tired .
ohya . da sao came over to ms look for me cos she went to sit the singapore flyers . i also wann to go sit lo . but muz wait until i free lo . but i doubt will be soon lo . sad-ed :(( ah shit i shall go watch my drama alr . nites . byebye :))
this song super nice :明天以後林峰& 泳兒泳：曾流行情歌虽则都继续播可惜今天无缘一起高歌一趟唱没结果再合唱亦没结果
峰：明明以前是我傻求求你姑息我填词人替我写出的痛楚期望你开口唱吧合唱歌那可得我
泳：当初你抛开我（峰：我独唱一次认错）泳：你为何麻木地高歌（峰：唱下去不理为何）合:消失的激情还要热播谁人仍然是你记住的一个
泳：失去的恋爱难以勉强峰：开一句声听著情歌总能满足一秒遐想峰：日后留恋你的声线泳：恐怕未放下泳：明日更不堪设想（峰：而我不堪设想）合：一千句亲爱的恐怕时间到了无缘再遇上峰：我亦无办法得到见谅泳：忘掉我声音以后别惆怅（峰：沉默一刻我在惆怅）合：始终无法合唱
峰：祈求回头亦太难如何唱多一晚无人饶恕我比悲歌更惨泳：其实你分手以后这一天已心淡峰：当初你抛开我我独唱一次认错泳：你为何麻木地高歌合：消失的激情还要热播谁人仍然是你记住的一个
泳：失去的恋爱难以勉强
峰：开一句声听著情歌总能满足一秒遐想
峰：日后留恋你的声线
泳：恐怕未放下
泳：明日更不堪设想（峰：而我不堪设想）
合：一千句亲爱的恐怕时间到了无缘再遇上
峰：我亦无办法得到见谅
泳：忘掉我声音以后别惆怅（峰：沉默一刻我在惆怅）
合：始终无法合唱
泳：你要试著放低我峰：我怕我以后还是唱没结果（泳：已是结果）合：以后得一个
泳：失去的恋爱难以勉强
峰：开一句声听著情歌总能满足一秒遐想
峰：日后留恋你的声线
泳：恐怕未放下
泳：明日更不堪设想（峰：而我不堪设想）
合：一千句亲爱的恐怕时间到了无缘再遇上
峰：我亦无办法得到见谅
泳：忘掉我声音以后别惆怅（峰：沉默一刻我在惆怅）
合：始终无法合唱I'M IN LOVE WITH THIS SONG !!

idk whether this is right or wrong . ah shit . i miss you :(( cyahs in a week's plus time :p

2009-04-03T00:14:00.003+08:00

wohoo . for the first time ever since soooo long that i reached hm at 1045pm today . HAHA !! cos i was working at cathay mahs . and and i played left4dead the whole day . i've completed 2 more stories . HAHA !! actually i also vry li hai . HAHA !! kns right .

right now there are many things in my mind which i'm not supposed to think . but hor when i thought of those things makes me feel very very happy and blessed . HAHA !! ah shit . i should juz go and bang wall . HAHAH !!! i also dk what i'm typing but i juz feel like saying out . HAHA !! okay i shall shut up .
oh ya . my 6mths dateline is going to be up soon . oh my tian . i think i did worst than before . and now i'm afraid to see big boss . oops :((
i saw honey xl today . with yingwei and friends . i super super long nv see her alr lo . hopefully she can get into uni when her results are out :)) jiayou honey :))
i think i shall end here . cos idk what to update . and and i cant wait to change phone :(

2009-04-01T02:53:00.004+08:00

wohoo . i cut-ed my hair alr . super super happy . i love my new hair . all thanks to nick :)) HAHA !! i shall upload the pics when sis send it to me .

aft that intended to go play lan but ended up decided tmr den go . so aft match i have to go down all the way from tamp to meet the rest . soooo ended up i went to eat lala with ah kian at the big s11 . halfway through nick came to look for us . we talked alot alot . and aft that we went hm early cos he have to wake up early .

acc him walked to his hse there den i walked home . talked alot alot . was vry vry surprised with his past . HAHA !! ah kian keep saying he vry 'diao' HAHA !!

ohya . ppl have been trying to matchmake me sia . pls stop it can !! i'm happy with my life . so carefree with no worries . soo daniel and ah kian pls stop it arhs . his gentleness makes me feel soooo sweet :))

2009-03-31T02:18:00.005+08:00

THIS POST IS DEDICATED TO DA MOO DANIEL :u hor dont anyhow tie red knot hor . i'm not tgt with him . he is my best daddy la :)) i love him like how i love u all can . bleahs !! i know u will come and read this . soooo i purposely dedicate to u . muz be touched hor . and pls tag aft u read this :p

2009-03-30T01:31:00.006+08:00

i suddenly miss my classmates :(
HAHA !! can u spot me :))

it had been soooo long since i touched my laptop . 1week !! super super busy and tired . omg . suddenly hope that i'll fall sick so that i can rest at hm . HAHA !! choy . touch wood .

for the past week many many things happened . soooo many until i cnt even recalled what happened . my mind just went blank . HAHA !!

ohya . i know how to play left4dead alr . super super fun lo . went to lan shop with sis and friends to play . HAHA !! i keep psyco-ing her to play with me . super fun lo . hopefully sch reopen alr can ask my friend to send me . den i can play at hm alr . wohoo :))

i'm going to cut my hair on tues . HAHA !! told nick alr . actually wanted to cut tmr . but he off . he going back msia . so nvm lo . since i tues also off . HAHA !! i wonder how he gonna cut my hair . and my hair nw is like sooooo dead la . hopefully tues my hair will be alive again . okay la . i know it sounds stupid .

i'm going to change my phone when i take my pay for sure . soooo excited can . when pay day comes i sure high . cos i gonna be a rich gal . HAHA !! but only for a few days . cos i need to buy phone :(( and also i wanna get ipod touch tgt with ah kian and reeve . HAHA !! soooo excited lo . den nxt target can finally get my camera . wohoo . the thought of it makes me soooo excited . lala :))

work was alright just that i cnt stand that bitch vase . shall not elaborate cos i dun wann to spoil my mood . everything was fun but tiring but exclude that ass vase .

today damn funny la . i qi si ah kian lo . HAHA !! i keep on cnt find the toys but dun noe why she can find . HAHA . den end up she cnt tahan me . and she also not free cos our 'best friend' came . HAHA !!

oh ya . ytd chester da ge jan and daddy came over to ms look for me . super xia si me can when chester came and call me . but at that time was super super busy . and daddy u came at the wrong time la . u understand hor . shhhh .

ah shit . my ftt is coming and i haven even touched the book . omg . no time to study la . and lydia failed lo . i think i also will fail . *crossed fingers* .

i shall go slp alr . tmr waking up super super early to meet sis den at night going down to kallang for match . and i'm soooo gonna be a walking zombie juz like the one in L4D . but i'm more kind wont go ard chasing aft ppl . HAHA !! pls laugh . i will try to update more often . nites all :))

2009-03-23T05:09:00.003+08:00

HAHA !! see i got mario his friend . MR YOSHI :)) now only short of my love ; mushroom :)) i think if really got mushroom sure vry vry cute de lo .
arggghs . was super tired to the max today that i didnt want to go to work . den that ass boss called me and said sorry that things are soooo un-organise . he is trying to be funny lo . he said he will try to arrange everything so that his staffs wont be that tired . but hor i doubt he will do that . he will only push everything and let the rest do it . thats why i called him an ass . shit u !!

bj chalet ltr on . feeling soooo happy cos i can get to see many of them . william will be coming to fetch us at amk . tgt with stella,juliet and his didi(idk how come he will be in the picture) . i think will be super fun lo . i'm sooo looking forward to it :)) but at the same time which means i will miss the game with safsa . HAHA !! not purposely de . not cos of maggie okay . daddy sure anyhow think de lo :))

HAHA !! the urge is still there . might be going on nxt tues . HAHA !! see how nah . wohoo :)) vry scared lo . damn sad-ed lo . i want to play left4dead but hor muz install . so have to wait for one kind soul to send it to me den i can play alr :)) the thought of playing it makes me feel soooo excited . HAHA !!
my mum and bro are biased and they side u . cos they didnt noe the truth . but i noe that i have done nth wrong . u were the one at fault . but anyway i dont care alr :)) cos i noe that they wont noe the truth . anyway it's not important alr what . who cares .
and and R i really dont want u to be like this . i dont wish to lose a friend in the end . i just hope that things turned out this way . not your way . i hope u understand . sorry :((

it ended

2009-03-22T05:00:00.002+08:00

it's official . me and victor broke up . cos aft all we are not suitable for each other . i wont have any hard feelings alr . cos i finally wake up . i knew it all along that i have been living behind her shadow . cos this is not the first time alr . but nvm . suan alr . u said that u think u owe her alot . dont u think u owe me alot too ?! i bet u owe me more than what u owe her . but i guess u wont realise it . idk arhs . and i dont care . cos to me i feel that u are really not a very gd bf . anyway . aft dragging on for almost 3 years . i feel a little bit of relief that things turned out this way . idk why either . maybe i'm used to it alr . u take care . goodbye :)) but we can still be friends . i think we be friends will be more happy lo . HAHA !! things should just be this way in the first place :))

have been working at cine for the past few days . feeling vry fucked up with the boss . pls go and bang the wall la . u are the worst boss that i have seen . u are even worst than kuku bird lo . i dont think that i'll stay in this job for long . so ppl got jobs intro me . faster faster .

saw alot ppl at cine today . HAHA !! i saw joanne peh and andie chen . she damn chio lo . super friendly . and both she and andie super funny and they get excited when they were catching the toys . HAHA !! next , i saw ah beng with his friends . xia si me lo . cos i was talking to raine and ryan . den suddenly he pop out from no where . den i saw rizal from ns bongo . HAHA !! den i saw one ns de GR . but i nv call him . vry paisehs lo . den 11 plus super hungry i go buy the crispy chicken but the in charge (i think so) dont want to charge me . soooo i eat for free . HAHA !!

tmr working at cathay at 12 till closing . ahhh . i'm sooooo sick and tired of working there alr . soooo if anyone free go visit me . if not i will talk to the wall . HAHA !! and i suddenly feel like playing the left4dead . although i like idiot playing but i still want to learn and master it . HAHA !! and one more thing . i suddenly got the urge to pierce my tongue . HAHA !! pls stop me . okay la . i shall go slp alr . if not tmr i will become a walking zombie . nites all :))
i lied to my mum and bro again cos i want u to leave a gd inpression in their heart .

2009-03-19T02:57:00.009+08:00

ARGGGHS !!! FCUK GASTRIC !! my gastric have been feeling like shit this 2 days . super pain until i almost died la . plus stomach pain bomb toilet thousand times . until nw still pain lo . omfg !!

was rather unhappy these few days . cos of things which i dun wann to mention . sooooo many things happened lo . made me feel soooooo helpless . ah shit . fuck . forget it and stop thinking cos it's over .
i'm working tmr at cathay alone . hopefully my gastric will recover . ahhhh . bless me pls guan ying ma or whoever . if not i will die . i miss my moo :((

i keept quiet . even when i'm in soooo much pain i still took the effort to go find u and look aft u . even though u are not seriously injured . there is not even a 'are u okay' and u juz continued with yr show . all this i did not say anything and it hurts me when u said i asked too much from u . juz put all the blame on me . ah shit . i shall shut up and stop complaining . aft all i still vry mind abt that incident . but i still love u moo :))

2009-03-16T17:43:00.004+08:00

ytd was working at cine . NO CUSTOMERS !!! i almost talked to the wall and the worst thing is my phone low batt. kns right . bored to the max lo . den the guard also vry bored den we keep talking . HAHA !! and ytd got alot ppl say we cheat ppl's money . stupid ppl lo . spend abit only how to get the toys . some more tell u should catch the hand alr keep catching the head . den still asked me why cnt win .

den went down to buy drinks den i saw ivan . they went cathay to look for teck ying they all . den i went up continue to look at the wall . den ard 11 plus saw them again . they wanted to watched dragonball . but ended up playing lan . den i aft work go find them . intended to go ps there eat beancurd but we walked all the there den close alr . den we cab to sumi's hotel there and play . HAHA !! ivan still as usual vry vry funny la . HAHA !! when i was abt to leave we camwhore abit . den teck ying cnt stand me la . HAHA !! at the hotel lobby :))
my crappiest bro :))
sumitro and teck ying :))

look at ty :))

ended up we asked somebody to help us take . but he no skills . see the pics .

sooooo far . see what .

sooooo blur . HAHA !! anyway also thanks la . HAHA !!

den the dumb guys forget to bring their phone down and asked me acc them up to take their phone . cos they wann the pics . so ended up camwhore outside the room . HAHA !!

SUMITRO !

DUMB PIG TECK YING !!

sumi say we got the jiao face . HAHA !!

see this guy forever soooo skinny that i can carry him lo . u better grow and get bigger size !!

and hor teckying . that is swensen la . NOT subway u ass !! and i reached hm at 7am in the morning . gosh . i'm tired to the max :(

anyway . have a safe trip back sumi :)) cyahs when u are back :))

2009-03-13T00:25:00.002+08:00

tata . rmbed me saying that i saw darren tan on my previous post ?? HAHA . he came again ytd at cine ard evening with his friend . he is still super friendly . we talked for awhile and and ended up i took photo with him . HAHA !! *shy* the way he talked to me like as if we know each other for 10 years . so in conclusion he is super friendly :))

working was tiring . why ?! cos no customers at cine and i was bored to death . at least today aft yi wen came to cine and i headed to ms and at least i got to talked to ning zhi . as usual gossip time . HAHA !! she super the hua chi i tell u . until i cnt stand her lo . HAHA !! den she vry qi cos i show her the photo that i took with darren . and and today we talked to the darren look-alike . aft work when we went our separate ways darren look-alike talked to me . HAHA !! qi si ning zhi lo . HAHA !! cos she left alr . anyway his name is nick :)) ohya and he actually stays near my hse . he stayed at opp amk pri . so qiao and he said he shall call me and la kopi some day at the market . qi si ning zhi to the max . HAHA !! no la . we were juz playing with each other .

anyway i shall go slp early alr . have been late for the past 2 days . cos really super tired . and having a bad headache for the past few days alr :(( nites all :))
u made me teared when i read that book . i missed the old u :(

2009-03-09T17:49:00.003+08:00

i'm tired like shit sia . luckily i off today . i woke up at 4plus can . supposed to leave my hse go kallang alr . but muz wait for captain tell us whether kallang raining not . so shall stay at hm first .

saw darren tan and his gf on sat . HAHA !! i finally saw the real darren alr . cos marina square got this hairdresser look alike like him den i told them i saw the real one . not the look alike de :))

supposed to watch movie ytd night with moo . but but i was abit late . HAHA !! so ended up nv watch . sad-ed lo . den we bought long john and came back my hse eat .

bj called and asked me to join them for the chalet on the 23rd . HAHA !! and i've decided to go . cos i miss a few of them . HAHA !!

ohya . thanks roman for the present . is super super ex de lo . thanks so much !! and also thanks for the sandwich and green tea .

anyway i seriously need to change a new phone . my phone can throw in the dustbin alr lo . always hang and auto on off . moo also wann change phone . but we saw the phones all not vry vry cheap . damn sad-ed . hopefully the sky will drop money . HAHA !! pls laugh . okay la . i shall blog again . shall go rest before going to kallang . bye :))

2009-03-06T01:34:00.005+08:00

T-I-R-E-D
i have been working for the past few days . long hrs and is really vry vry tired sia . the only time i can rest is when the time i reached hm and head to bed . den aft which morning wake up wash up and head to work alr and the cycle goes on and on . but on the other hand was gd cos it means my nxt mth pay will be finally enough for me to save up . HAHA !!
aft i start to work here i miss my moo alot alot sia . cos everyday work den cnt go out with him . he's also working and and i have not watched that movie yet lo . i think no more alr . sad-ed .

ytd was super super tired until i went to moo's hse and slp . HAHA !! although i'm vry vry tired but when i lie down on the bed i become vry vry awake sia . omg . idk what happened to my body clock . i think spoil alr lo . better pray hard that it will be back to normal when sch starts if not i soooo gonna be a walking zombie seriously !!!

okay i shall head to bed alr . super tired and hungry but beauty slp is more important . tmr and sat i'm working at cine . hopefully got alot alot customers . if not i think i will talk to the wall . HAHA !! and i think i gonna sick again . have not been feeling vry well these few days :(( nites all . ilovemymoo:))

2009-03-02T16:57:00.002+08:00

i want to get myself a new wallet :(( my poor wallet have been with me for years can . i think since sec sch . pathetic sia . omg omg . HAHA !! i shall go prepare and go for the match alr . if not i think colleen gonna kill me . HAHA !! bye :))

2009-03-02T02:18:00.002+08:00

woke up late today . intended to meet moo for movie before going to work but but i overslept . was vry pek chek with myself cos i seriously vry vry tired and my body ache like mad especially my knees . but my dearest moo was sooo nice to ask me go back to slp . ended up i woke up at ard 3 and drag myself to work . super tired and shag . can u believe that while walking that i actually bang against one machine and my hand got a new blue black . super the pain and embarrassing can . in front of soooo many customers sia . omg !! faint .

moo have been saying that i'm not really happy working there . seriously idk . maybe cos i'm still new . but thinking abt getting the commission light up my night . HAHA !! okay idk what i'm typing alr . gonna go slp . nites all . will update again . loves :))
thanks moo moo !! i love you !!

2009-02-26T13:47:00.002+08:00

sorry for the lack of updates cos my internet connection got some prob .
anyway . i've left bj aft working there for 3 long years . last day of work was a little sad . and i gonna miss the people there . but but they asked me not to return uniform cos they want me to go back and help them . den i told them if i free den i'll go back . so byebye bj for now :(

HAPPY 25MONTHS MOO !!
iloveyou :))

2009-02-21T23:51:00.002+08:00

i'm very very bad at saying goodbyes . i always end up getting teary when it's time to say goodbyes . oh my tian . i almost cried today at work when i told them . how touched could i get when i heard what they told me . and and i know that i gonna miss them . 3 years there . soooo many memories . it's time to look forward instead of looking back . ahhh . 3 more days and thats it . goodbye . sigh :((

2009-02-20T23:16:00.002+08:00

ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch

my back hurts like hell :((

2009-02-20T01:19:00.002+08:00

yeahsyeahs . played with stingray today . HAHA !! we lost badly . like expected . 66-23 i think . but but this time round we played better than that time the daisy tan's carnival . long time since i last played a tough game . this game can only spell out the word F-U-N !! jan,lydia,daniel :))
they were vry vry excited to play the defence . i wanted to cut into that pic but they shoo me away . HAHA !!
team saboteurs :))

T-I-R-E-D !!

the game was really vry vry fun . HAHA !! could see that everyone gave their 100% . hope to have more tough games so that we can learn from them :))

kelvin was damn damn cute and funny can . while pairing up with him i keep hearing the echo xiao xiao xiao . HAHA !! cos he dun noe what to call me . xiao v or xiao moo sao . damn damn funny . imagine u running to get the ball den u keep hearing xiao xiao xiao . HAHA !! u funny la dude !!

2009-02-19T02:56:00.003+08:00

i saw a bag at amk hub and i wanted it badly . have to wait until pay day . sigh :(( that bag really vry vry nice . too bad i'm super broke nw like usual . HAHA !!

went to rp training today at the competiton hall . super super cold sia . den damn tired . HAHA !! cos long time we nv train alr . HAHA !! den coach send us back hm . and and i was late again cos me and rebecca waited for wenying for super long sia . den the whole team waited for us to start warm up . HAHA !!

i was very happy ytd night . cos me and moo talked alot alot . and and moo u noe i love u !! HAHA !! okay . i noe i vry random . i shall go and play game alr . bye :)) and oh ya . tmr we playing against nsl team, stingray . pls faint . HAHA !! okay okay . byebye :))

2009-02-17T01:43:00.005+08:00

this year's valentine's day was fun fun . although we nv really celebrate but i enjoy myself vry vry much . and and dumb moo made me cried twice and i still got that blue black on my ankle . HAHA !! but nvm . it was fun :))

for the past few days gastric problem was looking for me . and nw i'm having super bad gastric pain and sneezing away like nobody's business . damn it !! damn xin ku can . omg !! sigh !

i was late for work today . and as usual super down crew but luckily there was not alot of customers . and and all they noe how to do is cut cost . faint can . pls go and bang the wall !! and tmr i'm working opening until 1pm . Yes!! 1PM like wth can . might as well dun put me work . what type of hours is that sia . faint faint !!

my hands were itchy and tried to change blogskin but there were errors . and i'm tired alr . i shall update again tmr . or maybe tmr's tmr :))

anyway . HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO MARK DADDY and and HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO DARLING HAHA :))))

our gifts :))
our one big family :)) short of special :(

we played monopoly :))

iloveyoumoo. muackks :))

2009-02-14T03:16:00.009+08:00

(edited) which part of me look like dora ??
alright i have problem uploading pictures cos blogger still giving me prob and idk why . went to work pasamalam today and ass sia . both victor yang and sam keep calling me dora cos they say i looked like . oh my tian . which part of me look like dora ? and and they started calling me vira/dovien cos dora + vivien = vira/dovien . vry lame right . actually quite funny la .
and and there was this time when victor called me and i turned back he was laughing like hell . u noe why ?! cos when he called dora i turned back . like wth !! cos i got a feeling got someone calling me what . den u noe what . when he called vivien was super soft la . den dora super loud . of cos is when dora that part i will turn la . ass . and they couldn't help laughing at me the whole night .
and and the source came from my sister liping .
cos that day they were at aljunied then opp us got this uncle selling kids vcd and suddenly liping shouted to victor saying "ehs . my sister on tv" -.- at that point of time they were showing dora the explorer . oh my god . thanks soooo much liping -.-
and and i shall blog again . aft blogger stop giving me prob :))

anyway . HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY TO MOO AND EVERYONE :))
i hope things are getting better for us and this is the 3rd year that we are celebrating tgt . i'll cherish u moo . ilovemydearestmoo :))

AND HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY TO DEAREST DA SAO !!

2009-02-13T00:10:00.000+08:00

i rotted at hm the whole day today . damn damn nua the whole day can . T-I-R-E-D is the word i can think of the whole day . omg omg . i shall blog again . cos i really dk what more to say . and and i had a hard time trying to upload the photos today . cos blogger giving me prob :(( HAHA !! stay tune :))
this was taken at clarence hse . during cny . while waiting for moo and him to go take the mj table :))

at moo aunty's hse .

both are the love of my life :))

iloveyoumoo :))

ANYWAY , HAPPY 22nd BIRTHDAY TO KENNETH !! :))